THOUGHTS THAT KEEP ME UP AT NIGHT
2022It’s that tiny thought that creeps in on you when you lie sleepless at night. Once it has revealed itself it won’t let you go. What happens after I die? How will I die, will it be painful or will it be swift?
Most days death and the fact that I’m going to die doesn’t get much thought and is drowned out by the business of living life but there are certain days where I can’t stop thinking about it.
The uncertainty. Is it possible to let go of the fear of death and instead solely focus on being busy with life? Death is still the only certainty in life. As a species humans used to be sorrounded by death for most of history but now in our modern lives we do whatever it takes to shelter ourselves from death, the fact that we are going to die and even talking about tends to make people feel uncomfortable. Once we were able to answer these exsistential questions by flipping through the pages of a heavy black book but now we are left to our own devices and to come up with each our own answer to this large than life question. Whenever I dare try to come up with my own answer I keep on failing. Death is the ultimate question which I may never know the answer to.
Most days death and the fact that I’m going to die doesn’t get much thought and is drowned out by the business of living life but there are certain days where I can’t stop thinking about it.
The uncertainty. Is it possible to let go of the fear of death and instead solely focus on being busy with life? Death is still the only certainty in life. As a species humans used to be sorrounded by death for most of history but now in our modern lives we do whatever it takes to shelter ourselves from death, the fact that we are going to die and even talking about tends to make people feel uncomfortable. Once we were able to answer these exsistential questions by flipping through the pages of a heavy black book but now we are left to our own devices and to come up with each our own answer to this large than life question. Whenever I dare try to come up with my own answer I keep on failing. Death is the ultimate question which I may never know the answer to.
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